First the anger, then chose love

So I went to the doctor yesterday for a scan, comparing apples to apples. As I sat on that chair I had flash backs of four years ago when I firimagest contained the tumor. What was on my mindset? How did I feel like a champ despite the situation? How did I stay focused on happy when I was also scared? Could I duplicate those feelings if I received bad news?

It’s been very interesting to say the least.  Four years later, after I contained the tumor and it didn’t grow, I was faced with the same challenge and a bigger fear.

As the first doctor came in I had sort of a half smile, half fear face. He proceeded to tell me that based on what he saw, the tumor had grown a little less than 1 mm – which is sort of good news – considering how aggressive these usually grow. However he was really concerned to see a black shadow of some sort – a sort of mass next to the tumor twice the size.   The uncertainty, the uncertainty!  It could be an extension of the tumor.  It could be something else completely unrelated. Voy could be a second tumor, however its twice as big.  The mouth is connected to so many nerves and blood vessels.  AND the brain, which is the concern of my homeopath.   It could be who knows what.  We won’t know til we do a procedure and take a biopsy Feb 17.

Here are some simple steps to thrive even in the midst of chaos and bad news, knowing every time an interruption comes into our  life, it’s for a reason to help us grow.

1.  Accept where you truly are and face your fears.  If you don’t, it will sneak up on you!  Embrace that part of you that’s scared.  Accept that it just sucks. Feel whatever emotions are popping up.  Feel the fear, anger, resentment, etc.  I learned this from my mentor Donny Epstein who has changed Tony Robbins’ life (get Donny’s books on healing they’re amazing).  If you try to immediately transform this feeling without facing it, you’re skiping the most important part and missing the benefits it will bring to your body and your emotions!

2.  After you accept it and embraced where you are, then chose love.  Be grateful for all the things in your life and remember everything that happens, every chaos/ every soul that comes to your life comes to help you or help shape you.   Loving and accepting yourself can be thie toughest thing.   Read the book by Louise Hay You Can Heal Yourself and his important self love is in healing and in thriving.

3.  After this,  journal your experience, your fears, your frustrations and also things you’re grateful for.  When  you’re grateful fear disappears.

I created this blog because it fills me up to share my journey and possibly impact others, and my hope is to sparkle more tools, joy and love into your life.

The doctor told me to do things that fuel my life with joy.  Today I’m leaving to Hong Kong to see my husband Dave Ulloa speak and to enjoy a few days vacation.  I packed a cooler with all my supplements and checked it in.  No excuses for being healthy even on the road!  Even if it’s 16 hr flight away lol!

As soon as I return I’m seeing two of the best homeopaths plus the biopsy plus a second and third opinion!  And then, if I have to dive into an intense treatment and/or surgery, I’m ready.

Right now I’m in a deep dance between anger, fear and love.  S Factor continues to be my shelter to dance, express my emotions and feel the intensity of the passion in my body as I dance around all these emotions.  Network chiropractic is helping my body align in the most beautiful way to be ready for the next steps.  Hot8 Yoga keeps me radiant, joyful and soulful and prayer and meditYionevery day keeps me connected to my creator. Riding horses, beach walks, mountain hikes are all contributing to my energy richness.  My husband’s unconditional love and unstoppable laughs and jokes keep me energized and grateful.  My parents’ uncomditional love keep me strong and joyful.  My friends and my group of girls who keep me going every day with support love and joy on our amazing ‘what’s app’ chat groups.

For now I will keep doing what I love such as traveling and loving life until I am told otherwise.  I’m bringing an empty suitcase to Hng Kong as I hear the shipping is amazing.  I will sleep in every day, go to the spa and nurture my body, heart and soul with great books, great friends and ‘me’ time.   A new journey has started in my life.  A new chapter of a book.  Excited, scared, strong, weak, I’m feeling it all.  Happy I have the ability to feel.  And the there’s life and it’s rollercoasters. Instead of saying ‘why me’ I’m saying ‘TRY ME”!

i chose anger, then I chose love.

About Yvette Ulloa

Yvette Ulloa, the fiery Latina was born in NY and currently lives in California. Yvette is passionate about health/fitness, travelling the world full time, and teaching others to achieve success! Yvette Ulloa has been through a journey of challenges, however they have turned out to be some of the biggest blessings in her life. She has been happily married for 16 years to the love of her life Dave Ulloa, a former professional basketball player in Australia and self-made entrepreneur. Yvette's philosophies are all about contribution, sharing lessons from her journey with others, and she is lucky to travel around the world inspiring people with her story. She has spoken to audiences as big as 12,000 in Vegas, South Africa, Hungary, Greece and many other places, where she is highly acclaimed speaker and coach. In 2010, Yvette Ulloa and her husband Dave Ulloa achieved one of their life-long dreams to travel the world with Anthony Robbins and become Platinum Partners. They got to experience a whole year of immersion in Scotland, Egypt, Israel, Fiji and get personally mentored by Tony Robbins. One of Yvette's biggest passions is helping women around the world to believe in themselves and have a voice. She will reach out her hand to you to help you climb up to the top of the mountain! And nothing like enjoying the journey and making many pit stops to smell the roses. The coffee. The challenges. Anything that makes you grow and enjoy life. Dave & Yvette Ulloa are also professional tourists and ambassadors of fun. Dave Ulloa recently got back from climbing Mount Kilimanjaro, the highest free standing mountain in the world, at 19,000 altitude, one of the toughests and most rewarding activities of his life. Dave and Yvette Ulloa are Presidential Advisory Council members for the largest travel social media company one of the top 100 direct sales companies in the globe, WorldVentures. They were honored in front of thousands of people in Las Vegas for achieving the highest rank in the company, International Marketing Directors, being the first Latino couple to achieve this rank, as well as being the first team of both International trainers and speakers.
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12 Responses to First the anger, then chose love

  1. Melissa says:

    You are surrounded by love. I’m praying for you. May God bless you. You are an inspiring woman and I know you can handle anything that comes your way. Lots of love and support. Many blessings to you.

  2. Derrick Satterfield says:

    Thanks Yvette for your passion and strong will to defeat all obstacles. Our family will keep you in our prayers. You are an inspiration to us in Worldventures and we will forever be thankful for the messages you shared with us. Love you and Dave…Get well soon!

  3. You are so brave and inspiring, Yvette! Continue to live in JOY and enjoy your amazing husband that adores and LOVES you so much! Have a wonderful trip in HONG KONG and SHOP, SHOP, SHOP!

  4. Carol says:

    4years ago I was diagnosed with breast cancer and had 2 lumpectomies. I took a very holistic approach with supplements, healthy juicing and educated myself with eating. December the breast cancer came back very aggressive. Since I had had some skin cancer in the past and this in the same breast same place I have chosen chemo. The university of Arizona medical team is so cutting edge. After much research God ( good orderly direction) and using my network of people whom God led me to, I’ve found a team I trust for treatment. I was so against chemo treatment because 30 years ago my Mom was chemo’d to death. In the last 3years the treatments have come so far. In fact I’m not giving up my hair. Thanks for sharing so much of your life Yvette! I identify with much and you really inspire me. The healing books are wonderful. Have you gone to any of Donald Epstein’s seminars? Enjoy Hong Kong and come back safe.

  5. Laura Jane says:

    Such beautiful and heartfelt words. I am sending love and big radiant wellness vibes to you. Love is always the answer ♡ Thanks for sharing your inspiring story.

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  7. Cyn says:

    That was a beautiful blog…
    This is a great article for people who suffer in silence about the mysteries of life.
    Sharing your story embraces the darkness and light which is so healing.
    Looking forward to reading your posts and manifesting that everything heals perfectly for you.

  8. Rebecca King says:

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